It's really hard

I know right now everyone is trying to be all positive and uplifting, but with the situation at hand I just don't think I can. I'm just going to apologize right now for all my negativeness (if that's even a word). Yes I am thankful for all the great things and people that I have in my life, but one of the most important people in my life is not ok right now so it's taking it's toll on me. My grandma ended up being admitted to the hospital on Wednesday afternoon. They have ran tons of tests and poked and prodded at her nonstop. They took away all of her dignity, and they continue to use her as a pincushion. Her sugars were scary low, and that was what was causing her dilusions. They have to poke her every hour to check her blood sugars. We were told yesterday that she has advanced liver failure. Her liver is dying, and she is too old for a transplant. Unless one of us can donate to her (if it's even an option) then we are losing her. We don't know how fast it's going to be, but she is in pain. Apparently your liver dying is a VERY painful process. Since her liver is dying toxins are being released into her body which is causing her to feel sick. Since she is sick she doesn't want to eat, and since she isn't eating her sugar levels are low. She is dehydrated, and no amount of water is helping. She is retaining water in her legs and hands which just baffles me since she is dehydrated. I'm confused and upset, and I just keep hoping and praying that when the specialist comes in today he can give us good news about one of us being able to donate. As far as I know many of us are willing to. Anth and I have talked about me possibly donating. He was surprised that was something I would do, but my grandma is like my second mom and I can't stand the thought of losing her. Please continue to keep her in your prayers, because really at this point it's all we can do :(