Ugh!

Not much has been going on lately, so I haven't really had aything to post. I haven't really been in the mood either. I'm just seem sort of...BLAH lately. That's truly the only way I can describe it. I have been on edge and unmotivated. Maybe it's spring fever. I am so sick of the cold weather that I could puke! The dumb thing teased us by having it get so warm for a while, and then here came the storms again. According to the news the storms aren't over either, and I REALLY wish they were. I need to get out of my house and do something, but I can't. We have had some friends staying with us for a few. Our townhomes only allow them to stay 2 weeks, so they will be leaving this weekend. I am sad and happy at the same time. I love them to death, and I love their kids like they are my own. Plus they have been very helpful houseguests. They have pitched in with cooking dinner and doing the cleaning. The problem is there just isn't much room in our place for 2 families to be here. Plus I have noticed little things I miss doing that I can't do with people staying here.

We finally heard from both Syd and Dom's coaches. Dom is on the Angels and Syd has the same coach as last year. I'm not sure what their team name will be yet. Last year she let the girls decide, so I am guessing she'll do that again. Both kids were suppose to have practice Wednesday, but because of this stupid weather it go cancelled. They were both really bummed, and I felt bad but at the same time was glad we didn't have to go sit out there and freeze while they practiced. Plus they had practice at 6 and 630, so we were trying to figure out how we were going to do the 2 practice thing.

Twilight

Last night I went to Macy's with Amanda, my cousins Michele and Chanda and a girl they work with for the Twilight party. We expected it to be so much more, but we still had fun! We put in for all their little drawings, I bought a Team Edward shirt and after that we didn't have much else to do. Amanda and I decided we weren't going to drive back to Stansbury to just be here for an hour and have to drive back, so we went and spent an hour and a half eating and just talking at La Frontera. We had to be back to Macy's at 11:30 for the drawings, and so we could pick up my goodie bag and my copy of Twilight that my mom preordered for me. Some of the people there were CRAZY!!!!!! There were people in prom dresses, people with their faces painted and other different little things. A bunch of love sick teenagers would squeal everytime someone won a Twilight prize or when Edwards name was mentioned. My cousin Michele jokingly tells us if any of us screams like that she'll punch us lol I love the book and the movie, but I am definitely not as into it as most of those people were! At 12:01 they started calling names to give out peoples movies, so we waited for mine and left. When we got home we broke out the goodies and started watching the movie, but I was exhausted and crashed. So, of course, we woke up and watched it this morning. We got some "prom" pictures with Edward, so I will post them once I find my program to upload my pictures!

3 things

3 names I go by
1. Ange
2. Babe
3. Mom

3 names I no longer answer to
1. Sweet pea
2. Munchkin
3. I can't think of a 3rd

3 jobs I have had
1. waitress
2. special ed assistant
3. cashier

3 jobs I would still like to try
1. lawyer
2. pyschologist
3. school counselor

3 places I've lived
1. North Ogden
2. Texas
3. Tooele

3 places I have really loved
1. North Ogden
2. Anywhere I was dancing (competitions, performances, etc.)
3. grandma's house

3 tv shows I watch
1. One Tree Hill
2. The City
3. The Hills

3 tv shows I would still watch if they were still on
1. Elimidate (cheesy I know)
2. Another dating show I can't think of the name, but it was couples who went on dates with other people and at the end they had to decide if they wanted to stay in their relationship or breakup
3. Can't think of another

3 places I have been
1. California
2. Montana
3. Texas

3 places I'd go in a heartbeat
1. Italy
2. Paris
3. New York

3 people I email regularly
1. mom
2. Ashley
3. grandma

3 of any favorite foods
1. spaghetti
2. chile verde
3. chicken marsala

3 foods I know I should like but don't
1. peas (unless they are straight from the pod)
2. grapefruit
3. seafood

3 friends I think will repost this
I don't know, but I would love for everyone who reads it to repost it

3 things I dread
1. my kids becoming teenagers
2. my kids dating
3. paying bills

3 things I am looking forward to
1. Anth finding a job
2. Tending Boston
3. watching my kids experience new things

Hoax or not???

My cousin is telling me that this Walmart thing is a hoax, and that it has been spread in a few different areas. I am not willing to risk it, so I will just stay home. Even if it is a hoax what kind of sick person would make something like that up just to scare people! All I know is that it's ridiculous no matter what, and that if it isn't a hoax I am glad I have done what I needed to spread the word to everyone I know because I would NEVER forgive myself if something happened to someone I could've easily let know about it!

STAY AWAY FROM WALMART!!!!

A friend of mine whose cousin dates a Tooele cop got a text saying the cops received a tip that there will be a gang initiation at Tooele Walmart and they are targeting women and children. Another friend of mine that I told about it contacted a close friend who works in personnel at Walmart and she said that it is true...Walmart knows about the issue and cops are suppose to be patrolling all day!

What the hell has our world come to?!?! It's ridiculous that they would target poor defenseless women and children. I am personally staying home and not going anywhere all day, and hopefully they catch these idiots before anything happens to anyone! Help me spread the word, so nothing happens to anyone we love!

So happy I want to cry!!!!!

Dom had his appointment this morning and HE DOESN'T HAVE CANCER!!!!!!!!! I feel so relieved! The dermatologist said it is a big mole, but that it has good color and symmetry. She gave me a pretty gross little bookmark thing so I can continue to watch it. She said it will grow in size with him as he grows, but that if I think it's growing out of control to come back in. She was a way nice lady, and she made me feel so much better!!! I almost jumped for joy LOL Now we can get back to living a life of a normal family with normal worries about their kids and not scary situations! Thanks to everyone for all the love, support and prayers :)

Grandma Sally

March 17th (St Patty's Day) also happens to be the unfortunate anniversary of Anth's Grandma Sally's death (it was 4 years ago today). I never had the chance to get to know her very well, but the few times I did meet her she was always very nice to me. I am told that I am the only girl that she was nice to when they came by to get Anth. She used to tell Anth he needed to get rid of his ex and settle down with me (smart woman!). I do know Anthony was very close to his grandma, and that even though he doesn't ever say it today is a very hard day for him. He talks about her memory a lot more around this time, and even though it's a sad day for him he still likes to celebrate St Patty's Day for the kids sake. His cousins have told me a million times that Anth was his grandma's baby and that if we had had Tasia before she passed away none of the other grandkids would've existed. Not good for them, and not that I would wish for her to be favored, but it's nice to think that maybe before Tasia came down here to be with us she got to spend some time with her Grandma Sally. I really do wish I had had a chance to get to know her more. In just 3 months it will be the 4 year anniversary of my grandpa Don's death too. It's hard that we both lost someone so close to us is such a short amount of time :(

Tired of dr's!!!

I have had enough of dr offices lately! I took Syd for her hearing test this morning to double check that her dizziness isn't inner ear. At first he was concerned, because she was showing signs of hearing loss but he decided that maybe she just wasn't responding everytime she heard a sound like he had told her too. He went back into the little booth (Syd said she felt like she was in a shower LOL), and explained to her again that he needed her to tell him EVERY time she heard anything even if it was really quiet. The test went much better the second time! Everything is normal in the testing. He said she has a little bit of negative pressure in one in ear, but it's still in the normal range so he isn't concerned. He was going to give the ENT her results, and as far as he knew we weren't going to have to come back in as long as her dizziness isn't coming back.

It's back to another dr appointment tomorrow, but this time it's Dom's appointment. I am WAY nervous for it, because I don't want anything to be wrong with him. I know these things don't just go away though and need to be dealt with. Hopefully we get good news though. My guess is they will have to do a biopsy to test him, so we may not know a whole lot right away.

I had a freak out session for a minute yesterday. Anth called to check on the job at the depot, and the lady said that when they did a background check on him he had a disorderly conduct charge that we didn't know about from 3 years ago. We knew he went to jail for a week because of warrants (no my husbands past isn't perfect, but he definitely isn't that same person today), but we didn't know that he had been charged with anything that night. We were both worried about him not getting the job because of it, because they lady said she needs to talk to her supervisor. I called my aunt, because she works in that area and has for years. She said not to be concerned, because they just have to check everything out. Yesterday I wasn't so relaxed about it. I was bawling and freaking out thinking that he for sure won't get the job, and we would be back at square one. It just seemed like one thing right after another, and yesterday I was at a point where I couldn't take anymore. After talking to my aunt though we both feel a little better, and we are both still hoping and praying that he will start working out at the depot soon.

Anth told me that if he starts working there that we can go have my IUD taken out and start trying for our last baby...YAY!!! He has never said a definite we will do it at a certain time, but he says with a stable government job with good benefits that now is as good a time as any!!!

Jon and Kate plus 8!

Anthony hates when I watch this show, because he doesn't think Kate is very nice. If I had 8 kids I would probably be a little testy too. That's besides the point though...I have gotten a couple of really good tips from this show lately. Anth cooks breakfast almost every weekend, and I get the kids plates ready. I dread cutting the pancakes or french toast though, because my wrists start to hurt REALLY bad. Well I was watching a special Jon and Kate plus 8, and one of the viewers sent in a suggestion that instead of using a fork and a knife to cut the pancakes that Jon should use a pizza cutter. Yes it's so simple, but never something I would've never thought of and it's genius LOL It saves time, and stops my wrist from killing me!

Another tip we have picked up on was having a "special" mommy daddy date with each child. We have been trying to figure out how to make the kids feel like they have their own time without having one of the other kids interrupt them. It hasn't been easy, but after watching that specific episode we have decided we're going to do one on one dates with them. Each one of the kids is going to have a day alone with mom and dad (just the 3 of us) while the other kids go to grandma's house. They get to pick what activity they want the 3 of us to do together. We are probably doing our first one next weekend with Syd. She has chosen to go to the bookstore to buy a book, and go get a treat after. Cheap, but perfect because she loves to read. Dominic wants to go swimming for his date. Tasia hasn't quite decided yet. We are going to have to give her suggestions, and let her pick though because she is a little too young to just pick something on her own!

Benign Positional Vertigo

Sydney's appointment went good today. The ENT did some tests to make sure it was nothing with her brain, and then did some Hallpike test to check her dizziness. He has come to the conclusion more or less that she has benign positional vertigo. He said this is something most common in grown women, because we are turning our heads at odd angles looking in cupboards and stuff, but that it can happen in younger girls also. He gave her some exercises to do twice a day for a week that should get rid of it. He also wants her to come back on Tuesday when the Audiologist is in to do a hearing test just to be sure it's nothing inner ear. It sounds like everything is all good though, so 2 down 1 to go!

This makes me laugh...

When I went to pick up the kids from my mom after their church class last night they asked me to pick up a pet carrier from my cousin for their cat. When I got there we were talking about how the cat had to go to the dr this morning...blah, blah, blah. So after we leave the kids were asking me why the cat had to go to the dr. I explained to them that my parents don't want "kizzy" (as Tasia calls her) to have any babies, so they have to take her to the dr to get her fixed. Sydney argues saying "I want her to have babies". I then proceed to tell them that having lots of kittens can be hard to take care of, and they can't keep them all so it'd be hard to make sure they all have a good home. Dominic, who has been quite during this whole discussion, pipes in "Well can't the dr just fix her so that she only has one baby!" After I laugh for a minute I tell him that unfortunately that's not the way things work LOL I love my kids, and their sweet innocence sometimes! Another fun thing he tells me just today...him and Sydney are both grounded from their Nintendo DSs for today, because they were playing them last night when they were suppose to be getting ready for bed. So Dominic is doing his homework today and our conversation goes like this...

DOM "Mom, guess what my brain keeps thinking?"
ME "What is it thinking Dom?"
DOM "It keeps thinking that it wants me to go in the kitchen and get my DS and my Mario Kart game and sneak in my room to play it. I know I can't, because I am grounded from it but that's what it keeps thinking!"

LOL I think that was his hint that he really wished he wasn't grounded from it, so he could go play his game!

GREAT NEWS!!!!

My mom's dr called today and they got the results from her biopsy...IT'S NOT CANCER!!! I can halfway breathe again! Now if we can just get Syd and Dom through their appointments with good news I will be one happy little camper :)

My loving husband!

I just wanted to take this time to let everyone know how amazing my husband is. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world! Anth shows me so much love and support, and in the beginning of our relationship I wasn't sure how to take it (if you know about my past relationships you know why). He will just tell me at random times throughout the day how he loves me so much and how he can't believe how lucky he is. He lets me know that he thinks I am beautiful, and he tells me all the time the little things he appreciates and finds sexy about me. It's not just his random acts of love that I appreciate so much though. I love that he is so helpful with our kids! It's no secret that biologically he isn't Sydney or Dominic's dad, but in every other aspect he is. He is there for them more than their "sperm donors" have EVER been. He has taken them both on as his own, and he treats them no different than he treats Tasia. He shows them so much love and support, and I don't know where we would be without him. Anthony is also very helpful in doing the housework. I used to be the one who did it all (since he was working), but since he lost his job he has stepped up and helped so much. Since I have been working (even though it's from home) he has been the one who does most of the cleaning around the house. The week I went to training he was so great! He not only took care of our kids making sure homework was done, they were fed, bathed and put to bed on time, but he also took care of the 2 kids I was tending for part of the day since I had to leave before their mom got home. I could probably go on forever, but I suppose I will stop here. I just want my husband and everyone else to know that I love him with all my heart and soul, and that my life wouldn't be complete if I didn't have him right here by my side :)

Spending time with fam....

Yesterday morning Anth, myself and our kids got to go to Juan Diego High School to watch his sister perform in her school play. She played the part of Belle in Beauty and the Beast, and she did an amazing job! She has an unbelievable voice, and of course she looked gorgeous. My kids who can't seem to sit through anything sat there and watched the whole time without a single complaint. Everytime the lights would go down to change scenery Tasia would say "I want it to come back again". She was scared of the wolves, but I think that was only because they walked right in front of us and she didn't know they were coming. None of the kids have quit talking about it since. We all had such a good time! When we were talking about it when we left Tasia told me it wasn't Aunt Danielle it was Belle. She was convinced that she was really Belle, and not just Aunt Danielle dressed up in the costume. Afterwards we took pictures, and visited with his family for a minute but unfortunately couldn't stay long since I had to hurry home and log in for work. I will have to post some pics as soon as I get them put on my computer!

Anth ordered the UFC fight on pay-per-view tonight, so we are expecting a house full anytime soon. I'm excited to hang out and eat munchies. It's kind of a pain in the butt to have to clean the house all day for everyone to come over, but it's worth it because we have fun. Everyone brings their kids, and the kids go hang out and play while us adults hang out and visit. I couldn't ask for better friends or family. Tonight is the first time my parents will be meeting my sister's new boyfriend, so that should be interesting. As she puts it he is a "smidge" older than her, but if he treats her and her boys good I don't care. Plus he has his life together, so he won't have to mooch off of her LOL

My mom had her biopsy yesterday. Everything went well, and they will have her results on Wednesday. I thought they would know right away, so I'm a little frustrated but it'll come faster than I think I'm sure.

Oh the creativity of a mother!!!

Ok I have been going crazy lately trying to figure out how to get Tasia to sit down and eat a full meal. She is one of those kids that will eat a few bites, go play for an hour, eat some more, go play...I'm sure you see where I am going with this. Sydney and Dominic were never like that, so it's a new situation for me to deal with. I know she needs to understand that at mealtime we sit down and eat until we are done or full or whatever, but I haven't been able to figure out how. Anth started threatening to throw her food away everytime she got up to play, and that works sometimes but others I know in her head she's think "Ya right dad!". The other night his method of threatening to throw her food away wasn't working, and she hadn't eaten much at all! Well any of you who know Tasia know she LOVES Dora!!! We had just been playing before dinner and pretending she was Dora, so I started telling her that if she didn't sit down and eat that Swiper the Fox was going to swipe her food. I have no idea where it came from, but hey it worked for the moment. She would go to get up and as soon as I said that she'd say "Swiper NO swiping!", and then she would sit down and eat some more food. She actually finished her whole plate of food, and she thought it was a hilarious game. I know it won't work all the time, but it worked for that night and every night we can get her to sit and eat a whole meal is an accomplishment!

*Quick Update*

The dr just called, and Syd's EKG was good so it isn't her heart. We have an appointment in about 2 weeks to get in with the ENT to start whatever other testing they feel they need to do.

Last night started out as a decent night, but ended in stress. I will start with the fun part first, because it's always better to here about those sort of things...I took the girls to get their hair trimmed by my sister. There was no way I was doing anything more than a trim to Tasia's hair, because it's so long and pretty and at this age she still lets me make the decisions when it comes to it. Syd has said she wanted to grow her hair out, but on our way to their appointment last night she surprised me by saying she wanted her hair short with some bangs. She tried to convince us to do the longer bangs that go straight across your eyebrows, but my sister told her with short hair she'd look like Dora lol We talked her into some side bangs instead, and this is the cute 'do she ended up with...



On a different note, Syd has been having dizzy spells lately. She'll get dizzy to the point she is crying, she becomes nauseous and she has even collapsed a few times (never lost consciousness just collapsed). Scary right?!?!?! It's mostly at night, and really early in the morning, but occasionally during the day. I thought it'd go away, but it hasn't. It's been going on 9 days now. I figured sinus infection or maybe inner ear infection, so I took her to the dr after her haircut. I swear everyone and their dog was there! We waited in the waiting room just over an hour, and were in the room for almost a half an hour before we saw the dr. When he came in he checked her out, and found nothing to do with sinuses or inner ear. Instead he sent us for an EKG. What the heck seriously??? My family has always been family healthy, and all of a sudden we are being bombarded with all these horrible possibilities of things that could be going on. Anyway...he wants to make sure it's nothing to do with her heart, because apparently there is something that can go wrong with your heart that can cause these same symptoms. I took Tasia to my mom, because by this time she was unbelievable restless then headed over to the hospital for Syd's EKG. Poor girl was not very thrilled about it, but the guy was really nice and did everything he could to make her feel comfortable and keep her as covered as he could. We took the results over to the dr office as soon as we were done, and Dr Gould is suppose to look at them today and get back with us. If it's nothing to do with her heart he is going to send us to an ENT to run more tests, so we can figure out what's going on. He mentioned Vertigo being an issue, so of course I come home and jump on the internet to research what I can find out. As always they talk about things that scare me, but I know they list worst case scenarios and I have to try not to let it get to me. We'll just have to keep up on dr's appointments until we can figure it out. Again, I am trying to think positive, but honestly how do you when your mom might have breast cancer, your son might have skin cancer and now your daughter could have something wrong with her heart...not to mention this has all happened in the last month and a half!!! I guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens. Sorry for all the negative posting, but like everyone says this is my blog and my feelings. It also happens to be what my life is being completely consumed by lately.